How much time do spend in front of mirror? What do you see? A success or unrealized dreams? In the last two decades I image I have seen myself in a mirror a dozen times. It has not been an intentional avoidance just not comfortable asking someone to hold a mirror so I can admire myself or discover flaws. Ladies, it’s my best beauty secret I’m giving away for free. I still picture myself in the mid to late twenties.
In the beginning all I saw were broken dreams. It was a destructive perspective. Always regretting and wishing I could have a chance to exploit my potential. My only motivation to live was a driving responsibility to be a father to my children. Granted the five years prior to going on the ventilator was a daily struggle to remain above the dirt, but I wasted precious time I didn’t possess not living fully.
We all have burdens mine are no greater than yours just physically obvious. Everyone has a cross to bear, some self-inflicted and others with no explanation. So we’re all in the same sinking boat. A negative perspective you question? Perhaps. I have learned weathering many storms that nothing lasts forever on this big blue marble, raging waters calm and the good in life requires nurturing to sustain. Living with a glass half full attitude is laborious, but anything worthwhile during this visit demands effort to achieve.